It's the first day in October, and my first writing in weeks. I have been doing other forms of writing like updating my reading journal, writing in my daily journal and such, but nothing creative or interesting. I'm looking forward to doing better this month.

I have been reading several books and have finished none. Since it's the start of a new month, I want to challenge myself to do better. I plan on setting some really tasking goals for myself in this month, one of which will be to finish all the books I started reading in the month of September.

It's been 10 weeks since I started my new job. It came with new feelings that I am still unable to fully understand. I've been so uninterested in my job even when it was the role I really wanted. I finally got the role and do not have interest in doing it anymore. I'm not so sure if it's because the job requires me to be onsite 5 days in a week or it's because I am not learning new things or being as productive as I want to be. Technical product management means heading the engineering side of building a product but very oftenly, my attention is always been pushed to sales and customer phasing responsibilities.
I know it is a very poor financial decision for me to leave my full-time job and rely soley on Personal Training but I can't keep subjecting myself to this torture all week. I dread going to the office, I never look forward to any meetings or work. It's that bad. I'm going to try my best to give it one more month, just one more.