I am struggling with finding my purpose, finding out what I am meant to do or who I am meant to be.
I feel like my interests are ever changing.
today I might feel like starting a fitness community and I start it.
tomorrow, I might become complecant and not feel like heading the community so I allow it to die.

Why can't I stay consistent with things?

I have been able to stay consistent with working out.
My feelings about creating haven't changed in the longest.
I always enjoyed making, but I am now confused at what to make.

I remember when perfection was never the benchmark or goal for my creations.
I just created and I created a lot.
I enjoyed the process of creating more than I did the outcome.
I enjoyed play,
But now I feel too grown, too old to play.
Mind you, I am just 24 years old.
But paying rent and bills are more the end goal than enjoying the art.
Because the rent won't pay itself and the bills won't wait for you, it'll keep on piling.

How have I been able to stay consistent with working out?
How can I apply that to other areas of my life?
The goal for working out was never to make money and I try as much as possible to not make that the goal. Which is why even when I train people, I always say, "I don't care about you enough, I don't care about what you pay me that much. I do it because I am already here and it won't really take so much for me to help you reach your goal. But when I care about your progress and what I gain from training you which is obviously the monetary value, I believe this will negatively affect how I see going to the gym."

Does this mean that when money and external validation is the goal behind doing something, I can't stay commited to it?
Probably!